Wednesday 20 August 2008

Irwin's Back!

Safe and sound :)

Thanks Gina

Tuesday 19 August 2008

I'm Back...

So, Spain was better than I thought it would be. Due to my sunbathing I actually got a bit of a tan! I'm a nice light brown :)
My sister didn't piss me off too much. Some days we got on fine and even had a laugh, others we just completely got on each other's nerves and argued.
Saturday was the worst day. I've never cried so much in my life! Mum and I had the most awful argument, both making the other cry. We had a heart-to-heart by a beach whilst the others were in a restaurant. Another cry, a long cuddle, and an open, honest insight into each other's feelings. I think we both understand each other a little better now, and we're completely fine, so I guess that horrid day was for the best. Everything happens for a reason eh?

We took lots of pictures in Spain of which you can find on my myspace, in the "Spain 2008" album. There's a couple of the awesome train that took us all around the resort. You just got on whenever for free and it stopped at 19 points all over the resort (which just happened to be the biggest Club La Costa resort out of their '150 resorts in 41 different countries'). We've just bought into a timeshare with the holiday company Club La Costa which is fantastic, high-quality and has resorts all over the world. We can have lots of holidays now and each time take up to ten people. Mum said (during our long chat) that next time we go (so far I want to go to one of their resorts in Scotland, France and Italy) that I can take a friend, such as Gina or Monce, with me. That should be good.

I must say in Spain my self-confidence grew loads. I seemed to get lots of looks and attention from guys, which admittedly I liked, a lot. I've never really thought of myself as attractive (I have a big nose, massive bum, and wildly curly/frizzy/unruly hair). Sure, I've had days where I've felt great but most of the time I was just passable. But in Spain I grew to like my looks a little bit more, and aside from my MASSIVE bum, I do look quite good in a bikini! Haha.

There were soooooo many fit guys! Everywhere I turned there was at least one haha. I was in visual heaven ;) I must say I did quite a bit oggling at all the fine examples of maleness :D
I've realised I totally don't want a boyfriend at the moment though. Not unless someone totally perfect comes along! Boyfriends never last because I'm way too picky and I focus on the small bad qualities rather than all the reasons I went out with them in the first place! Also, I think I strive way too high. Like, I'm alright looking but I always want completely gorgeous guys. When really, I should go for someone alright looking so we're in the same, uh.. league I suppose. I always want a movie star rather than what's available it seems and I need to grow out of it if I ever want a relationship to last longer than a month or two!

Irwin, one of our cats, is currently missing :( He and Cleo our other cat stayed with Gina whilst we were away which was fine. But Irwin is a very shy and nervous cat, and we didn't have a cat box as they're in the loft. We got both of the cats in the car fine, but when Lucy (it's her fault again! grrr.) opened the door Cleo made a break for it, Lucy managed to stop her but then Irwin, completely terrified, bolted it and ran over a fence near Gina's house and into a woody bit. We went searching but he's disappeared :( I really hope someone finds him and rings our number on his collar, or that he goes back to Gina's when he's hungry (although he didn't show up for breakfast this morning). It's really got me quite down. I keep imagining him scared and hungry. It's our fault for not putting him in a box, which makes me feel even worse. I love all my animals so much!

Saturday 9 August 2008

First Blog + Holiday.

Ok, so I've just signed up to this blogger thing. I like blogging. I always tried to keep a diary when I was younger but I'm dead lazy so never kept it up, which defeated the whole point in my book. For a while I did some intense blogging on my myspace, but myspace isn't great for blogging. It's fantastic otherwise (I used to be like, addicted, although not so much anymore) but not for blogging. Then someone I knew advertised their blogspot and I liked it so decided to create my own. As I'm on my computer so often perhaps I'll keep this one going, and fill it in like I'd planned to with all my diaries!

So yeah, family holiday tomorrow. Going to Spain (again). I'm not looking forward to it if I'm perfectly honest. No matter where we go we always argue when we're on holiday. Well, I always argue. It's so annoying, I'm actually a dead nice person, who doesn't really like conflict or confrontation, yet I'm the one who gets on least well with everyone within my family and gets in all the arguments.
My sister and I are very very different people and we get on each other's nerves a lot. We always end up making snide comments towards each other and even though we both do it, I'm usually the one who gets told off for it. In arguments and things, my mum usually takes my sister's side as I guess they're pretty alike so she's bound to see things more her way than mine. Perhaps this time Lucy and I won't be at each other's throats so much because Alex, her boyfriend, is coming with us. This is good and bad. It's good, 'cos Lucy's attention will be on him so perhaps she won't annoy me. It's bad, because I am single and seeing a deliriously happy couple like them 24/7 might make me very depressed. For example, my bedroom is right near the bathroom, where my sister is currently in the bath. Alex just knocked on the door as he went past just to say "Love you!" which my sister coyly replied to with "Uh huhhh". Pass me the sick bucket.
But whatever. I'm not gonna deny them their happiness just because I'm jealous.
It's not just my sister though. It's my whole family. I like doing different things from them, have a different idea of fun etc and whatever they all want to do I usually don't. So I end up trying to enjoy something I'm actually dead bored of and then I get told off for ruining it for everyone or whatever.
Like the fact that I'm a vegetarian and the rest of my family are meat-eaters so meals are usually meaty and then we have to find a substitute for me which apparently is so hard *rolls eyes* yeah that's a good one to start an argument.
But enough moaning. I shall try and have a good holiday. Perhaps I'll even tan a little?!

Hmmm, as my first blog all that seems really negative haha! Oh well, future blogs will be happier hopefully!

Ta ra for now.